12-23-08...GOOD GRIEF
Good Grief!! Is there a klutz of the year award? If so I win hands down. If there was anything to, spill, drop, empty, step on, break, or anything beyond, By Golly I've done it this morning!
I got up all groggy eyed where my coffee was brewing but not quiet done. Was crossin' my legs, trying to wait on it to gurgle its last gurgle, cause my bladder was bout to burst wide open. Decided Well I'll just fill my cup quickly and be on my way. The darn coffee pot is supposed to cut off when the decanter is removed, It didn't!! I was watching that little stream of coffee running down on the heater and completely missed my cup. I felt something on my front that was warm, looked down and there was another stream running off the counter right on to my big belly! I was pourin' coffee on the counter. Then You know how sometimes the sound or sight of water makes your bladder turn loose? Nuff said about that. I scrunched up my bladder, grabbed my cup and started to the bathroom in a hurry. There was coffee on the floor and I went slip slidin' spillin' what coffee was in my cup. Of course it was dark. I had a garbage bag sitting nearby ready to take out for trash pickup but it wasn't tied up yet. Yep I did!! I brushed past it on my trek to the bathroom and it fell over spilling who knows what at my feet. I went forward on my trip to the bathroom and stepped on one of Moses' doggy toys which in turn squeeked scaring the stuffins' outta' me. By now my bladder could not wait (thank God I was heading in the bathroom door, STILL DARK) Knew there was no time to turn on the light so I dropped my drawers and flopped down on the pot. BY GOLLY I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS!!! The lid was down!!! I showered and put on fresh clothes, still hadn't had my coffee don't ya know. Started back to the kitchen, stepped on the squeaker again, stepped through garbage, (coffee grounds). Had to clean that all up, got my cup of coffee which by now was cold. That stupid pot did what it was supposed to do this time, shut itself off after two hours. I was already out to my chair in my room and getting ready to relax and watch the morning news before I realized my coffee was cold. Sos' I go back to the kitchen, heat my coffee in the microwave, burned my tongue on it, gave up the news and headed to The Hill. Checked The Hill all out and decided I'd better tell you all about my morning. So I just told you about my klutzy morning. By The way, I have a fresh cup of coffee sitting right here beside me. WHEEEEEW!!!
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
REGRETS
12-22-08...REGRETS
A couple of years ago at this time I finally gave up and decided I had to take care of something that had been a thorn in my side for a long time. I had a friend back in high school who had been my best friend all through our teen years. When she got to doing things that my upbringing had taught me to be wrong I had to walk away from her even Though I did love her. We grew up, drifted apart and went our separate ways. I left the state but she never did. And she never stopped the things she was doing, never changed. Somewhere in the recesses of my heart she was still there. I remembered all the good times we had and how very close we were. Things happened that brought us on the same path again through the Church we had attended all our life. We takked but it was like strangers and nothing was resolved. Then she did something that hurt me so badly. Just broke my heart. We had been such good friends. I couldn't understand and the human in me fired back with a letter that told her just what I thought of her. My Mama kept telling me it was wrong to go on that way and we should right it. But NO! That old human nature took hold of me and hung on.
Then in 1999 when I moved back home my Mama kept trying to get me to do something about it. The letter I had written had really hurt her. Well I said, She hurt me first, she owes me an apology. Mama said Honey the best thing you can do is make the first move. Be a bigger person. You know I am right. Well of course I KNEW she was right but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. My Mama passed away in 2001 and I was devastated.
Then two years ago my Mamas sister called me. Clydene ---- is dying. She is very sick with cancer. Your Mama always wanted you to apologise to her for the mean letter you wrote. No Auntie ( I call all my Aunts that) I don't owe her anything. My Aunt cried. She kept calling me and trying to get me to do it. By now she knew the whole story and even she believed that I owed her no apology but she kept after me.
I prayed about it finally ( what I should have done from the start. I hate my stubborness) and come to realize that I wanted to get this off my heart. This woman was dying and I owed her my love and support. Lord Help Me Finish this.
She was so bad now that she couldn't have visitors except family. I got a card and I poured out my heart to her. I reminded her of fun times we had had over the years and told her I still loved her. I told her I was sorry I hurt her. I mailed it the next morning. That night my Auntie called me and told me she was gone. Died during the night.
She never got my card. Because I was so set on the right thing and knowing in my heart she owed me an apology I allowed that Lady to go to sleep without me doing something for her. I was wrong!! I'll live with that. Please if you have anything against anyone, It is just not worth being right. You can't get a day back. All we have is today. No tomorrow no yesterday. It Is Always today, and today is when we have to do these things. Oh How I wish I had.
A couple of years ago at this time I finally gave up and decided I had to take care of something that had been a thorn in my side for a long time. I had a friend back in high school who had been my best friend all through our teen years. When she got to doing things that my upbringing had taught me to be wrong I had to walk away from her even Though I did love her. We grew up, drifted apart and went our separate ways. I left the state but she never did. And she never stopped the things she was doing, never changed. Somewhere in the recesses of my heart she was still there. I remembered all the good times we had and how very close we were. Things happened that brought us on the same path again through the Church we had attended all our life. We takked but it was like strangers and nothing was resolved. Then she did something that hurt me so badly. Just broke my heart. We had been such good friends. I couldn't understand and the human in me fired back with a letter that told her just what I thought of her. My Mama kept telling me it was wrong to go on that way and we should right it. But NO! That old human nature took hold of me and hung on.
Then in 1999 when I moved back home my Mama kept trying to get me to do something about it. The letter I had written had really hurt her. Well I said, She hurt me first, she owes me an apology. Mama said Honey the best thing you can do is make the first move. Be a bigger person. You know I am right. Well of course I KNEW she was right but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. My Mama passed away in 2001 and I was devastated.
Then two years ago my Mamas sister called me. Clydene ---- is dying. She is very sick with cancer. Your Mama always wanted you to apologise to her for the mean letter you wrote. No Auntie ( I call all my Aunts that) I don't owe her anything. My Aunt cried. She kept calling me and trying to get me to do it. By now she knew the whole story and even she believed that I owed her no apology but she kept after me.
I prayed about it finally ( what I should have done from the start. I hate my stubborness) and come to realize that I wanted to get this off my heart. This woman was dying and I owed her my love and support. Lord Help Me Finish this.
She was so bad now that she couldn't have visitors except family. I got a card and I poured out my heart to her. I reminded her of fun times we had had over the years and told her I still loved her. I told her I was sorry I hurt her. I mailed it the next morning. That night my Auntie called me and told me she was gone. Died during the night.
She never got my card. Because I was so set on the right thing and knowing in my heart she owed me an apology I allowed that Lady to go to sleep without me doing something for her. I was wrong!! I'll live with that. Please if you have anything against anyone, It is just not worth being right. You can't get a day back. All we have is today. No tomorrow no yesterday. It Is Always today, and today is when we have to do these things. Oh How I wish I had.
MY 16TH BIRTHDAY
12-22-08...MY 16TH BIRTHDAY
My Birthday is in August. A very hot and dry time in our area. The year I turned 16 I was struttin' high. Thought there was not anything I didn't know just a bit better than anyone else. I had lots of friends, mostly girls, (I was never popular with the boys except as a friend) I was happy and healthy. The blessings just flowed. I always had a birthday party at my home. It was always a grand affair for me. Mama and Daddy stayed in the house and we were outside where it was cooler after dark. We set up Brenda's phonograph on the porch. It only played the little 45s with a hole in the middle. Everyone brought their favorite Rock & Roll records. We danced the bop and just before time to go home we played SAVE THE LAST DANCE FOR ME and couples danced before going home. Anyone remember that song?
This year when I started planning my party Mama said: Clydene your Daddy and I decided not to have a party for you this year. "WHAT! NO PARTY MAMA WHY"? Well Clydene we are having company that night. Seems a bunch of my Aunts uncles and cousins were coming for a visit. Well I stubbed up and just became a burr in everyones side. I just could not believe my Parents would do this to me. I tried everything right down to a hunger strike. Nothing worked. My 16th birthday was ruined. No way I'd ever get over this. Heck fire No! I'm mad!!
What made it worse was Brenda's attitude. Brenda and Ruth (my best friend at the time) just made fun of me. Clydene you are too old to act like that Ruth said. Yeaw Clydene and you are too old to have a birthday party, thats for kids. Well, The nerve of them all. They are sure gonna' be sorry, I vowed. I just might not be here next year. Then what'll they think, By golly I'll show them. (All talk of course. Course I would be there)
During the next week I got the star treatment from everybody. Well, If they think that makes me feel better then they've got another think comin'. I'm mad at all of them.
Brenda and Ruth took me to Sunnyslope Drive In and bought me a Hamburger and cherry coke. We sat in the car and the car hop brought it out. I'll have to admit I was beginning to feel better. Well, I was until Brenda whispered to the Car hop and Ruth got out and started going from car to car, sticking her head in, resulting in everyone staring at me. What's going on Brenda, Why are you whispering. Are you talking about me? I asked Ruth the same question when she came back to the car but they said they were not whispering. Shoot! Did they think I was stupid? Well I wasn't stupid. Everyone was out to get me even My Parents. Why? I felt lower than a snakes belly. Tomorrow was my Birthday and I was not coming out of my room all day. If Mama expected me to visit with all them old people she had another think comin'. NOPE!
The next evening about 5 pm the company all started arriving. I peeked out the window and watched them. Heck I did like to visit with most of them. BUT NO! I aint'a'gonna do it. No Way!! Why there is Brenda, and Ruth, and Betty,and on and on and on. What in heck is goin' on here. I've just about had enough of this and I'm goin' out there and tell em. Now Folks, I'm usually a little sharper than that but face it I had a rough week wallowin' in self pity, Gimme Me a Break OK?
Anyway I went charging out there to tell them all what for. Everyone was in the Kitchen. I went in there and everyone hollered, SURPRISE! HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLYDENE!!! To say I was shocked would be an understatement. I was flabbergasted! I burst out bawling as everyone started hugging me. I saw dozens of gifts laying there and a big cake. OH MY OH MY. Yep I was ashamed, almost too ashamed to enjoy my party. They said they knew they would have to get me poutin' so I'd stay outta' their way. Well it worked. I had a marvelous surprise. My friends were all there. We had our dance on the porch, danced the bop, and had a grand ol' time. I can't say it was my very best birthday but it was one of the best. It taught me not to judge people. Especially those I loved. What made me think any of them would do anything to hurt me. I've never had another surprise party again. No way they could now. I've learned to take things as they come. Always expect the best, and don't assume that what I think is always right. Trust your friends until they give you a reason not to, and even then give them the benefit of the doubt. I knew all those things, but sometimes we get off track and have to have guidance and lessons. YEP!
My Birthday is in August. A very hot and dry time in our area. The year I turned 16 I was struttin' high. Thought there was not anything I didn't know just a bit better than anyone else. I had lots of friends, mostly girls, (I was never popular with the boys except as a friend) I was happy and healthy. The blessings just flowed. I always had a birthday party at my home. It was always a grand affair for me. Mama and Daddy stayed in the house and we were outside where it was cooler after dark. We set up Brenda's phonograph on the porch. It only played the little 45s with a hole in the middle. Everyone brought their favorite Rock & Roll records. We danced the bop and just before time to go home we played SAVE THE LAST DANCE FOR ME and couples danced before going home. Anyone remember that song?
This year when I started planning my party Mama said: Clydene your Daddy and I decided not to have a party for you this year. "WHAT! NO PARTY MAMA WHY"? Well Clydene we are having company that night. Seems a bunch of my Aunts uncles and cousins were coming for a visit. Well I stubbed up and just became a burr in everyones side. I just could not believe my Parents would do this to me. I tried everything right down to a hunger strike. Nothing worked. My 16th birthday was ruined. No way I'd ever get over this. Heck fire No! I'm mad!!
What made it worse was Brenda's attitude. Brenda and Ruth (my best friend at the time) just made fun of me. Clydene you are too old to act like that Ruth said. Yeaw Clydene and you are too old to have a birthday party, thats for kids. Well, The nerve of them all. They are sure gonna' be sorry, I vowed. I just might not be here next year. Then what'll they think, By golly I'll show them. (All talk of course. Course I would be there)
During the next week I got the star treatment from everybody. Well, If they think that makes me feel better then they've got another think comin'. I'm mad at all of them.
Brenda and Ruth took me to Sunnyslope Drive In and bought me a Hamburger and cherry coke. We sat in the car and the car hop brought it out. I'll have to admit I was beginning to feel better. Well, I was until Brenda whispered to the Car hop and Ruth got out and started going from car to car, sticking her head in, resulting in everyone staring at me. What's going on Brenda, Why are you whispering. Are you talking about me? I asked Ruth the same question when she came back to the car but they said they were not whispering. Shoot! Did they think I was stupid? Well I wasn't stupid. Everyone was out to get me even My Parents. Why? I felt lower than a snakes belly. Tomorrow was my Birthday and I was not coming out of my room all day. If Mama expected me to visit with all them old people she had another think comin'. NOPE!
The next evening about 5 pm the company all started arriving. I peeked out the window and watched them. Heck I did like to visit with most of them. BUT NO! I aint'a'gonna do it. No Way!! Why there is Brenda, and Ruth, and Betty,and on and on and on. What in heck is goin' on here. I've just about had enough of this and I'm goin' out there and tell em. Now Folks, I'm usually a little sharper than that but face it I had a rough week wallowin' in self pity, Gimme Me a Break OK?
Anyway I went charging out there to tell them all what for. Everyone was in the Kitchen. I went in there and everyone hollered, SURPRISE! HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLYDENE!!! To say I was shocked would be an understatement. I was flabbergasted! I burst out bawling as everyone started hugging me. I saw dozens of gifts laying there and a big cake. OH MY OH MY. Yep I was ashamed, almost too ashamed to enjoy my party. They said they knew they would have to get me poutin' so I'd stay outta' their way. Well it worked. I had a marvelous surprise. My friends were all there. We had our dance on the porch, danced the bop, and had a grand ol' time. I can't say it was my very best birthday but it was one of the best. It taught me not to judge people. Especially those I loved. What made me think any of them would do anything to hurt me. I've never had another surprise party again. No way they could now. I've learned to take things as they come. Always expect the best, and don't assume that what I think is always right. Trust your friends until they give you a reason not to, and even then give them the benefit of the doubt. I knew all those things, but sometimes we get off track and have to have guidance and lessons. YEP!
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