8-19-09...THINGS TO PONDER
I see these things all the time titled, THINGS I'VE LEARNED. Well these are some things I really hope I've learned. When I meet a grouchy rude person, I think, Well that was me just yesterday and I thought I had a good reason. No telling what this person has on his/her mind. I've tried to learn that when I get way down in the mire and just stick there, to hold my arms up to the Lord and kick like I was kicking the devil. God expects us to offer a little too and not just depend on him to do it all. Well! Do you expect to have to do it all? I've tried to learn never to argue with my spouse but just say I know you are right honey, then just go ahead and do what I had started to do as long as it is not something hurtful or STUPID! Likely in the long run he will think he did it himself if it works out. I hope I've learned who my true Friends are. They are the ones who will cry with you, not offer unheeded advice, let you cry on their shoulder and not say "WELL HONEY so and so had this worse than you have and they did OK. Hey, It is not going to make my situation any easier knowing that millions of others have had the same problem. It is still the same for me, I feel for them but right now let me think of myself for a little while. A true Friend is there for me when I need them or I am down in that bog. The other friends are great and I love them but when I get all bogged down they run the other way. Heck Why should they get muddy with me. And I think the best thing I HAVE LEARNED Is: Cry out to God first and foremost and He will supply those Friends to help me and be with me While HE Works The Whole thing out!
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
A TRIBUTE TO RICHARD
8-19-09...A TRIBUTE TO RICHARD
Richard Don 02/05/1971 to 07/17/1987
Still alive in my heart.
My Son was only 16 when he was killed in a car crash. I checked out of life for a while. (very bad thing to do) I even asked God to take me too but of course that was bad too. I wallowed in self pity for a long time, bad bad bad. I wouldn't talk about Richard to anyone just kept it all bottled up inside. I didn't sleep much, didn't eat much, quit my job, blocked out my Friends and Family, and just generally tried to stop living out in the open. These were all wrong but the worst thing I did was to stop going to Church and stopped Praying. Somehow God got through to me (He was the only one who could and I knew that but I was shutting him out also). God made me see that I had a life to live and people who loved and needed me. Richard was my only Child and my Pride and Joy and I was letting his memory stay in the recesses of my mind. God guided me through it and it wasn't easy but I finally decided to enjoy life again. I can and will talk about the tragedy now in hopes of helping other's in the same situation. I remember the good times with my Son and I can smile again. I Thank God for allowing me to have this precious boy in my life for 16 and 1/2 years. He was a Joy and I still feel Joy just thinking about him. Right now I am smiling through tears. Yes I do still cry sometimes but today I am also smiling!!!
Richard Don 02/05/1971 to 07/17/1987
Still alive in my heart.
My Son was only 16 when he was killed in a car crash. I checked out of life for a while. (very bad thing to do) I even asked God to take me too but of course that was bad too. I wallowed in self pity for a long time, bad bad bad. I wouldn't talk about Richard to anyone just kept it all bottled up inside. I didn't sleep much, didn't eat much, quit my job, blocked out my Friends and Family, and just generally tried to stop living out in the open. These were all wrong but the worst thing I did was to stop going to Church and stopped Praying. Somehow God got through to me (He was the only one who could and I knew that but I was shutting him out also). God made me see that I had a life to live and people who loved and needed me. Richard was my only Child and my Pride and Joy and I was letting his memory stay in the recesses of my mind. God guided me through it and it wasn't easy but I finally decided to enjoy life again. I can and will talk about the tragedy now in hopes of helping other's in the same situation. I remember the good times with my Son and I can smile again. I Thank God for allowing me to have this precious boy in my life for 16 and 1/2 years. He was a Joy and I still feel Joy just thinking about him. Right now I am smiling through tears. Yes I do still cry sometimes but today I am also smiling!!!
THINGS THAT FLUSTER ME, AND SHOULDN'T
8-18-09...Things That Fluster Me, And Shouldn't
Some things that bother me shouldn't. I find myself getting all frustrated and bothered about things I can do nothing about. That Is what this event, (below) reminds me of.
TWO CROWS AND A MOCKINBIRD
I was looking out the window this AM from my breakfast and there was a big black crow in a drainage ditch poking around and eating (no telling what) and all at once two Mockingbirds flew down. One got on either side of the crow and started dive bombing him. The crow tried fighting back for a while but that didn't work. Then he started trying to ignore the pesky mockingbirds. Well that didn't work either so that ol' crow just wore himself out trying to avoid them and keep at the task of poking around at the muck below him. I was wondering to myself, Now self why would those Mockingbirds be so persistent in trying to run off that ol' black crow. I don't think they want what that crow is consuming! Finally the crow grew weary enough to fly away and I thought to myself, Now self I'll see what those Mockingbirds were so mad about. Well those two little mockingbirds looked up for a while as if to say, " well we got rid of that sucker! And then they just gracefully flew away also. I still don't really know why the little birds were wanting to chase away that ol' crow but it just made me think. Isn't that just the way I am sometimes. If something or somebody don't look just right to me I just might try to chase whatever it is away. They didn't want what the crow had. They just didn't want the crow to have it either. Then there is another thing I thought about,- If you pester me enough I just might be tempted to fly away too without knowing why. Of if I pester people who frustrate me, maybe they would fly away. Now that's a good idea!Sometimes it takes hanging in there and letting the bothersome things not be 'SO DAB BLAMED BOTHERSOME' !!!!!!!!!!
Some things that bother me shouldn't. I find myself getting all frustrated and bothered about things I can do nothing about. That Is what this event, (below) reminds me of.
TWO CROWS AND A MOCKINBIRD
I was looking out the window this AM from my breakfast and there was a big black crow in a drainage ditch poking around and eating (no telling what) and all at once two Mockingbirds flew down. One got on either side of the crow and started dive bombing him. The crow tried fighting back for a while but that didn't work. Then he started trying to ignore the pesky mockingbirds. Well that didn't work either so that ol' crow just wore himself out trying to avoid them and keep at the task of poking around at the muck below him. I was wondering to myself, Now self why would those Mockingbirds be so persistent in trying to run off that ol' black crow. I don't think they want what that crow is consuming! Finally the crow grew weary enough to fly away and I thought to myself, Now self I'll see what those Mockingbirds were so mad about. Well those two little mockingbirds looked up for a while as if to say, " well we got rid of that sucker! And then they just gracefully flew away also. I still don't really know why the little birds were wanting to chase away that ol' crow but it just made me think. Isn't that just the way I am sometimes. If something or somebody don't look just right to me I just might try to chase whatever it is away. They didn't want what the crow had. They just didn't want the crow to have it either. Then there is another thing I thought about,- If you pester me enough I just might be tempted to fly away too without knowing why. Of if I pester people who frustrate me, maybe they would fly away. Now that's a good idea!Sometimes it takes hanging in there and letting the bothersome things not be 'SO DAB BLAMED BOTHERSOME' !!!!!!!!!!
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